My Begining

I tried to figure out which way to start this. Should I write it down in a journal? Should I speak it into a microphone and replay back my voice cringing at how nasally I sound? Then I remembered this website which i use to use for writing down all of my thoughts and feelings. Mostly I typed down my fears and insecurities rather then my joys and accomplishments.

I used Blogger.com as my own therapist, but it felt more like I was just shouting at a brick wall expecting it to answer my questions and love me. 

That's mainly the reason for this new start. It all starts with Love. That word that could make or break a person. that brought Troy to its knees and cost Whitney Houston; Kevin Costner's Heart in the movie, "The BodyGuard" Ive got to remind myself to Watch, the Bodyguard. Yes I pulled a reference to a movie I haven't even seen yet. it will force me to watch it. 

A few or many people will say that this is an attempt of revealing a broken heart to the world. Another sad, jaded, angry guy who got dumped. One of the reasons that I started this blog is to continue working through my pain and to make sense of what makes me ME.

This will be a recording of my Journey to Discover who I am. I've felt lost for a long time. So now it's time I put myself first and discover who I am.